117 - watch him as he goes

it's a blur. how a day can be the best and the worst at the same time. it's like one minute, you forget about the whole world, just being with your favourite person and they left you feeling appalled at the next moment. have you ever been in such situations? cos i just did.

somehow maybe i have to get a grip at the past and move on as if the past is just history. what if the past haunts you until you fear of what is going to happen in the future or even at this second in life? live in fear or just put out a brave upfront and face it cos it is still going to be there and nothing could change it.

i've never felt so stabbed and morose that every word that had been said started to raise question marks in my head, making me doubtful of everything that i have done wrong in the past that might be right or could go right. what everyone can benefit from and perhaps they can be happier than they are cos i cant seem to give what they want. i even gave myself a chance to learn and show what you wanted me to be and i felt i kinda lost in myself. i didn't know such sincere intentions can get all complicated that it resulted in something else. the thing is i was so brainless and never ever thought it was one of the reasons until yesterday hit me like a ton of bricks. i played a game that i thought i mastered but in the end, it pinched me. how could i overlooked such a simple reason?

whether it is a compliment or adoration, it doubted me now. whether it is for me or just another sentence that makes me go 'yeaah right'. especially after adoring a really good looking person, obviously we're incomparable cos who could i defeat anyway, i'm always at the losing end. adding up to what every other person who have hinted or judge me, what makes your comments so credible for me to believe?

look on the 'bright' side, why are you with me-again?

'irdk'

as intricate as this post might be, i just want this to stay here. NOBODY (including you) to question, ask or vice versa what it's all about. i've come to a conclusion that i AM okay with it and this is just a one time affair and i am just expressing what i think about this situation.

that is it.

116 - your sex is on fire

charlie simpson is yummy.

115 - 108, we're losing you

i was at Ignite yesterday despite my constant cough and a different tone of voices. i screamed my heart out when a vacant affair performed. i love AVA. this was my second time watching them live and its awesome. i wonder if fightstar's gna come cos if they are, i am soo gonna go.

i lazed around today doing basically nothing. i woke up at 12noon due to my late night talks and also the hyperness of yesterday night or maybe the meds took over me so i pitied boyfee for a moment.

CITS presentation on monday, HS delegates meeting on tuesday, AAP tutoring on wed, MIC prac on thursday and idk anything special on fri. maybe i should plan to go out with boyfee cos i miss him a lot. HAHA. (those words barely come out from me, really.)

can we get over this already?

hold on hold on,
i've been waiting here for too long
for too long.

114 - i'm gonna take you out tonight, i'm gonna make you feel alright

i am loving kate spade's bags and i'm planning to buy a bag. my current one is nearly torn and it can't carry the load that i am carrying right now.

i can hear boyfee saying 'wait for me to rob a bank.'

i'm in the midst of panic attack and brain congestion.

i need my spa vacation now, please.


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113 - how could you be so dr evil?

idk why i'm blogging. hahaha. i'm gna talk crap.

i'm loving school now. with projects nearly done and assignments done. the company's been awesome. laughed my arse off just now with elyne and dida about having speech and hearing problem. these people just need to dig their ears and enunciate words right - including me. HAHA.

twittering tom, listening to the fray and psychology project slides to finish up.

i'm missing afiqah, huda, wani, ezzati and atiqah!

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112 - essay done

so i was up at 12am yesterday night singing songs to my dear boyfee on the phone and hoping to finish my essay that is due in 2 weeks while boyfee was watching this show who showed a character that has a devil dad and angel mum while taufik was laughing hysterically and i could hear it which made me laugh even more and that dragged on till 2am which results me in doing this.

interesting enough? no?

i am so glad CNP project is done! i'm starting school tmr so its all back to the -___- and :O and :D and =/ and +____+ and ^>^ faces.

hahahahah idk whats wrong with me.
ouh i'm missing some drinks
pretty pretty drinks



hahah guess what people, my essay is done at last!
:D

words cant express how i feel

i dont know what's the big deal in korean dramas.
what's the big deal? really?

i've got CITS shitzxzxzzx tmr.
and have to start on FON alrd.
also finish up my PAS presentation
and MIC test this week.

all sunk in yet?

NAHH.
WEKK!

OKAY THIS GOTTA BE THE MOST CRAPIEST ENTRY EVER.
seriously.

as haunting as it may be

we may appear as the weirdest and most un-understandable couple
but what matters most is that theres you and theres me
listening to our song as we embraced
nothing could beat that moment
where i could just close my eyes with serenity

happy 22nd month hafiz

♥

'you're so artsy fartsy like that'
' hahahahahahah yeah rite -_____- '

'i didn't know my boyfriend is so dramatic'
'i didn't know my girlfriend was a sleepy bum'

'my boyfriend is scared of ___'
'no, it's just shocking that's all'
' yeah rriiiitttteeee'

the haunting of Connecticut was awesome.