124 - mymemomimuuuu mymemomimooo

i felt it once and i'm feeling it coming once again. i hate to be the one asking everybody whats going on with their lives and whats new cos i guess they dont want me to be a part of it. of course of course, i'm old news. they dont have to tell me. its so easy. just shun me out of thier lives as if nothing has happened. i am a happy girl.

i'm so used to be the one asking and finding out that i'm sick of it. damn sick of it that it led me to not think straight. during my papers, on my way to school thinking that all the damn answers are in my head. especially today. i made up selfish ways just to find a reason and heck, karma hit me good.

call me when i deserve to know, cause i cant be waiting for nothing and still figuring out what is hidden cause i already tried damn hard that im too tired to catch up. what i'm not trusty enough? seriously, i want this to end a damn Fcuking lot.

and now i need a hug.