142 - let's play pretend so it'll come naturally.

Family. No matter how much you hate them or no matter how deep you hold back your anger, you will still have to accept the fact that their are your flesh and blood. a few incidents happen here and there that left me astounded but i guess people have their own rights and say about their own family.

the funny thing is that, do they even realise that they somehow will have to see the person 30 years down the road? you will start to take care of them, maybe even feel that they seem too much a burden later rather than now. so forgiving them is the only thing that could make everything back to where it was. i dont understand why people have to shun away your own flesh and blood to your ceremony.

And if things dont always go your way, there's always a reason why they are acting like that. perhaps its for your own good. even though the way it come out seems really harsh, that's the way you should live it. (eventhough i really felt it was part of my problem) but trust me, there's always light at the end of the tunnel.

i took time during my trip to look back at what i've done about the past, the present and what can happen in the future. i did try to find answers as i searched and looked at the furthest point of the sea and i just realised that the world was bigger than it was in my mind. i have never felt so small and puny in my life. that was when it struck me, there's a lot of things that i haven't discover, learn i want to leave this world as a wise person. life is short to have hatred cos it will only cost me time. i feel that i should be taking every opportunity that comes by my life and appreciate it because i can never have the time to do that if i start hating. there is like a huge sea of opportunities and i should be having the wealth of it.

so the moral of the story kids, remember how you always want to be a certain person when you grow up, you will tend to have more dreams when you reach to a certain point of age and that is when you will have the opportunity to try everything you want in life because it only comes once in a lifetime.

enough of the long lecture. new year's resolutions coming up and i will be sure i'll stick to that.

and a really deep quote i just remembered,

yesterday is history , tomorrow is mystery , today is a gift that is why they call it the present.




there's always a limit that one could take, and i think i just reached mine ):