139 - we're finally intertwined

so much things happened after the previous post. there were things that i did that made it not me but the whole ride was thrilling. there were things that sometimes you just have to take the truth and just go with the flow. there were things things that left me a whole lot of awesomeness and wished i could relived it again. there were things that made me really dreamy and light and has a really long side effects. there were things that made me stay up late and caused my beauty sleep disturbed but i had to finish it up anyways or i'll be dead. there were things that i've been thinking and felt that i wouldnt make any difference and i'm getting way too used to it. there were things that made me upset but i had to deal with it anyway. AND there were things that just makes me smile and just enjoy every single moment of my life and make the best out of it.

see? a whole lot of things rite?

and the list just goes on and on.

upcoming CTs, POLYMPICS, CA, Holidays, PARTY!
do support me and my teammates for polympics alright people!
its on tues at 630pm, sports hall.

my floorball skills suck so if you do come down and support, laugh at me when i fall okay?
cos ill be laughing at myself too!
HAHHA.

okbyetillifinishmyCTs.

*WIDE WIDE WIDE SMILE*

138 - LALALA AH AH RAMMA RAMMAMAMA GAGA OOHLALA WANT YOUR BAD ROMANCE

school has been awesome with my wonderful dodols, making my oh so quiet days in NP a really hell loads of fun especially eating and staring at each other with darn sleepy faces, finding new eyecandies and talk about life. i'm starting to appereciate what i could make do with the people that have always been around me that i've never took notice of.

ive been busy with a lot of assignments to finish off. this includes SAWI's last steps, still need ideas to beef up my project and finding the materials for hard copy still makes me dizzy; DRAFT for NR needs to be done by this week cos i have 2 more weeks left and 1000 words don't come out from my brain just by itself; perfecting my NSL skills to ace practical test in week 5 (ALERT:NEXT WEEK); Study for FON test for next week's tutorial; AAP notes before week 6; upcoming polympics with yus and the rest (:DDDDDD i miss my floorball stick!) and loads more that i need to take care of.

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SAWI outing with 26 monthsary outing




hotcakes smiley face :D

my lovely boy right there was really helpful to accompany me for my SAWI project. he had to follow me twice cos the first attempt was hopeless as pictures at night are a nono. So we had another outing on our 26th monthsary and the day went awesome. breakfast at mac's with mum, playing racing games on asyraf's new game consoles, walking around aimlessely while i tried to withstand the dizziness i had (cos i was losing a lot of blood) and the long story ride home which summed up everything that happen at school. he was a really good listener.

although he forgot to wish me at 12am while we were talking on the phone (i frgt abt it too. hehe) the text you gave me at 1 am in the morning was a really really sweet thing to do and i love you even more than i ever do.

happy 26th monthsary to you and i
i know you'll always be there and i've always got your back
you know i love you (:

"alaa syg, don't be like that."
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA inside joke.
:DDD

oh oh i forgot see what i got in my mailbox today!


hafiz's cute little artsy fartsy envolope
there's a small note there "send by: nasyita's postman"
hahahaha
and this is what i got in return

fitri's reply
asyur was her postman.
HAHAHHA
thanks guys
although the order was a failure.
HAHAHAHA - again.

these are the small things that make me smile
:D

137 - good girl gone way way way bad.

its either theres something wrong with me or people around me are just fcking clueless that i am ard in this world. i dont crave for attention. i just need reassurance whether i make some sense in their fucking life and worthy of being in their lives or the things i do are just not to their liking. if i don't, i am glad to leave from their lives and pretend nothing happened between us.

i really hate the fact that i cried to sleep after that incident. i am still schooling and i dont have any financial support. why the hell did she get money for who-knows when i have school and that is actually more important? not only that, she gets more than what i do. i even had to ask to get it while on her side, money flow like water just like that. what, me going to school is not important enough? ( matter of fact = it seems unimportant now cos i am a nobody ) i do have some money but how long am i suppose to use my savings on stuff that I crave for? those that you could afford for me last time but not now? or for my future? its not only a matter of days but a matter of weeks. if it means that much to you, i could give back the money that was passed. it was as if its not sincere. why give?

i really hate the fact that everytime i try to make random calls or random texts, it will just turn out bad. really bad. its like i cant call out of a sudden especially when you asked why i called. why cant i call? if i cant call then dont fucking pick up. and i thought i missed you but heck, i dont know what im feeling right now. someway or somehow, i will get mad and then you will say sorry for idk what cause, why say sorry when you dont even know your mistake which you actually should know? i know my sorries wouldnt count cause i will always tend to do it. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me like really. or maybe its you? i cried everytime you had something to do or had to go. idk maybe people dont like the way we are together?

AND i really hate the fact that people pretend that their mistakes seems okay after a few seconds. the least they could do is talk to me. why should i always make the first move and pretend it is all okay. they know they are at fault, then talk. i wont bite. the least i could do is just ignore if i am still not okay with you or you feel the pain that i had went thru because of you. they think its so easy to just forgive and forget. although i am trying my best to but it is damn hard. i know you might be thinking i am making a huge deal out of this but i kept it for too long. it has happened too many times. once in a while i had to make it okay although it hurts and i had to adapt to the new situations but after a while, i had to adapt too much that it changes things.

I TOTALLY HATE THE FACT THAT MY HORMONES ARE RAGING AND MAKE ME LIKE THIS. PMS OR WHATEVER SHIT, PLEASE GIVE ME THE TIME OF THE MONTH ALREADY. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

ASS.

sometimes i wonder why i do this.

136 - thriller night

had a fun time during halloween despite being dumped and feeling so down. the atmosphere was so exciting and spooky with all the bungalows being decorated with all the spiders, pumpkins, cotton wool to make spider webs and not forgetting the sweets! i had half a bag of sweets that i brought along with me. it was definitely worth it. it was like playing at the arcade machine which offers sweets after every one dollar, except this one, it was for free. HAHA. now i have half a month supply of sweets for my boring lectures. furthurmore, some of them are imported from the USA. cool or whaaatt? and the highlight of the day was that even makcik keropok came for halloween!

this trick or treat is gna be an annual one i guess. gonna bring people who have no plans on halloween in the years to come. this include halloween parties after that - cos we are all legal remember? hahaha.

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seoul garden was the bomb. i ate like i haven't ate for months and i found a person who could eat non stop like me, farhan. i swear he loves seafood like how i love seafood. the other tables were done eating except me and him, we kept taking lala cockles and prawns like nobody's business. i swear i love em prawns. yum yum yum. it got me thinking of it again. i swear i have high cholestrol in my blood. HAHA.

had a lot of meat and also stories shared. it made me realise that first impressions always have a story behind it and never judge a book by its cover. you won't know what the person went thru and became like how we intrepret it. i really misjudged people so much that when i start to hang around, they are not what you think they are. they are real people and although they appear strong or not to your liking on the outside, they have went through a lot that you can imagine. they lived through reality and not wonders as most of us are kinda privileged. and their happiness are real and they make you happy as well.

i dont know, maybe i depend tooooo much on the people that i spend a lot with in these couple of years that i tried not to get close to the ones that are new to me cos i misjudged them by having opinions made by your bffs. but heck, now i know how true friends can be. and i am not biased but i know which side i'm rooting for.

and to hafiz, i miss you a lot.