be yourself day preperations

its funny how you prepare for events such as be yourself day. its this friday and i'm really working forward to it. thats where a day whereby you be yourself, play dressup and the stress mounts as you dont have anything to wear and would go on diet and save up just to find a nice outfit for that day.

i remembered when i was in sec 1. i searched a skirt with my mum, dont ask me why. and it took me like 2 weeks to search for one pathetic skirt to fit my outfit, which was a plain black tee. i seriously begged my mum for it, and finally got one. its now stuck somewhere in my cupboard, where i barely touch and wear it ever again. it was quite a disaster to wear it with a black tee and with my damn nerd face,which is damn ugly, wearing like that? oh my god, what was i thinking? i was crushed by kenneth and omg. omg omg omg. i looked like ajhfjleashjghrhga.

as you mature in sec 2, where you somehow know how to dress and somehow looked for a nice tee to kinda tone down. then you try out new hairstyles thinking it was cool to play around with big hair. and thats what i did. my hair was darn thick and had somekind of emo hair but it was emo-tak-menjadi. hahaha. and i added a few personal touch to my outfit. i recalled that i used this yellow-lime elastic band and used it with ribbon to have it as a belt. wth? but this time i got helps frm my friends to find a tee. so it wasnt that bad. hee.

but as years pass, you mature with time, the next thing you know is youre in the third year, having another cycle of be yourself day. this time its a whole lot of different situations you're going through. its like you get hungry, saving up, search the outfit yourself and thought of what others would think of you. especially finding time to go and get your outfit with your friends. thats what i did last week but didnt really helped them, just walked around chilling. and right now, after you get a tee, you would try it out with different bottoms, skinnies, shorts etc. and you cant pick what to wear so you ask a friend's opinion. then you get different views. its either you look like a minah or not on that day. skinnies seemed to be the in thing now so you would try your best to stand out from the crowd and not to be the main topic of people's conversation. now its the bitchiest thing ever. you try to impress people with your looks on that day, which makes it not being yourself. its being the best of yourself and show people thats the best i can be outside its either you take it or leave it.

with the different genre of fashion such as emo, minah, indie, retro or babydoll, i try my best not to look in any of this classifications. therefore i would go simple and make the best out of it :D

oral was okay. i dont knw why mrs ang gave a smile to me and seemed interested in what i was talking. hahaha okay that's a good sign. weeee~ but i suck at the picture conversation. theres nothing to talk about. haha.

and hearing from people what other people think of you is hurtful but you have to accept it no matter what.

and that sucks. BIG TIME.

You should never make a person love you for what you became for them but for what you already were in the first place.