it's been a week of ups and downs but more of the downs, and letdowns. but i had to keep strong, i had to believe myself so i wont go in to terrible thoughts of disappearing. what's impossible remains impossible and the fact that i can't change it is overrating. i want it to happen my way but things just fell into place, in a way that i dont want it to be how sweet?
common tests and good lucks had became a great way to somehow motivate me to go to school after all that has happened. i dont know what i should feel. awkward? delighted? hope for more or move on? but hearing those words just kinda made me change the way i look on him. then i asked myself am i hoping for more? if i'm not then why am i still here? wonders over wonders, actions over actions, when it only comes down to 'we're just friends'.
whatever it is, i definitely need to move on. perhaps, what goes around comes around right dee?
today seemed a slow blurry day for me. editing videos which will continue tmr, crapping with fizzo just cheers me up la. and he needs to stop singing rehab. its an awful song. dee got 'accidents' in school and wawa and chap told me what i was worrying over, thanks a lot. i need to know someway and somehow. but seriously, thanks :D
so what do you want from me now? change? this is what i am and i cant compromise to your needs. if you go for those kind of girls, i don't mind. so considering preety girls can be a big showoff to you, go ahead laa. thats not called love.
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