i feel alone.

this is so candid. HAHA.

so today, wasnt like any other days. this day doesnt make me happy. i looked forward to see him in school but words are a killer to me. i couldnt say what i wanna say. we did a few eye contact but i'm just prasan-ning i guess. when would i grow up? i think he's pissed with me.

yesterday went bowling with my family and tagged ika dee and wawa along. it was fun while it lasted. we had our minds off a bit. dee couldnt forget about ehem and ika missed suarez and wawa, she missed a stopped while sms chap. HAHAHA. funny. high school musical was on the tv and i danced like a maniac, and ppl were staring at me. who cares la.

i feel that i've changed, for the worst? i fear of being called cheerleader. cause i have too much to say about this person and get all hyped up and not care about others. and others are too tired to hear me talking about him over and over again. like look nas, no one cares seriously.

so why would i care about that person when he doesnt care about me, why would i even bother about him when he doesnt even bother about me? okay this situation suck. i want to make a move but im hesitant if i make the wrong move, i'm literally dead. if i make a right move, it'd be impossible to get together. and after what happened to dee and hujan, ITS JUST NOT MY TIME YET, i'm not ready to get rejected.

& i don't want to be having false hopes.